August 21, 2014


October 3, 2013   1 note

Fertility specialist

I’m so thankful that tomorrow I will be meeting with a fertility specialist who works closely with cancer patients. By some miracle this great doctor called me and is going to see me for free to discuss my options. I just hope everything works out and I’m not getting my hopes up. Truly happy right now.

September 30, 2013

F radiation! It’s making my forehead breakout and that’s not okay!!

September 29, 2013
September 26, 2013

It’s so funny to call around to various doctor’s offices and ask if they take Medi-CAL. They seriously answer with such disgust when they don’t. Today I was able to schedule an Eye Exam since the medicine is really taking its toll on my eye sight. I also called around for a Reproductive Endocrinologist, which is a fertility specialist. In no way do they accept medi-cal but I got this one lady who just happened to know a doctor that is heavily involved in fertility and cancer patients so I gave her all my info. That would be absolutely amazing if she called me back with some good news. You just have to plead your case and make doctors feel bad for you to get what you want. I think I have mastered the trade. 

September 24, 2013


My new drug costs $5,500 for 150 pills. I have to take 5 a day. Thank you BCCTP. Glad I don’t have to pay for this. 

September 23, 2013

Had a beyond amazing weekend in Big Bear. Feeling completely refreshed and ready for week 2 of radiation. 

September 19, 2013

So thankful to have a wonderful boyfriend who I can talk to about anything and everything. Today he helped encourage me to go to the gym in the morning and have a nice, easy workout. I ended up feeling extremely motivated and got a GREAT workout in. It has given me energy all morning and i’m so stoked. I also read some encouraging words from some women on a breast cancer mets forum and it was very comforting. I’m definitely in a good place today. Ready for Day 4 of radiation today, Day 5 tomorrow, and then a nice weekend up in Big Bear. 

September 18, 2013

Brain Mets

So I’ve slowly been coming to terms with the fact that I have breast cancer brain mets and there’s really nothing I can do to change it so I might as well just fight it. I’m not sure why my onc was not scanning my brain all along but it’s pretty useless to focus on that now. I started whole brain radiation, which has a huge success rate at zapping the cancer. I have mixed opinions between my medical and radiology oncologist. One is saying that I should switch from tamoxifen/herceptin (which is still working at keeping my regular breast cancer at bay) to another type of therapy that can get through to the brain. The other is saying that she will take care of the brain, and keep doing what’s working for the rest of my body. Eventually they will have to come to an agreement. I’m basically just trying to get through these 4 weeks of radiation everyday and hoping that someone knows the next steps. It’s difficult not knowing what will happen but I guess that’s how it goes. So far I’m tolerating radiation well- it’s not bad at all. I feel tired and anxious from the anti-seizure meds and steroids but having to take naps is the least of my worries. I just hope this radiation gets the cancer and it NEVER comes back.. Don’t know what else to think or say so i’ll just say thanks for your thoughts and messages. It’s GO time, lets do the damn thing. again. 

August 6, 2013

Day 1 of my new job

Started my new job yesterday at Geico. It was the first out of three orientation days and I feel like I learned so much about the company. There’s a lot of interesting facts and I really feel like it’s a great company to work for. I’m really looking forward to being a part of a good team, DRAMA-FREE. The pay is amazing and the benefits are too. If I didn’t already have my awesome, awesome medical insurance then I would totally jump on the Kaiser plan that they offer. I’m definitely excited for work today to learn more about our other benefits and hopefully start saving for the future. I feel like an adult.. scary.